whatever la this month!!

1st ....
Zaza buat juga open house pada 11/12/04 ....ramai gaks yang datang....sou,putri,eizani,afoi,pizy,aida, imma,ena,abg fahmi,kak alice,lynn,budaks Souldinero (Onez,Emmy,Raje,Mus&Feroz) ,along,anna,reza,gijole,eija,intan,panjang,Ap,sarah dan tak lupa bday boy kena tepung Abg fauzan.....rasa gembira la malam tue dapat berseronok ngan member kat umah sambil dengar pujian masakan cikna yang disukai ramai...kawan skool pun datang gaks.....eyen ngan awek dia....taufiq,amali dan ekhwan...akmar datang lambat tapi dia datng gaks la.....cuma satu je zaza rasa tak complete.....my Mad Shayang tak datang pun...sampai hati dia buat zaza mcam nie....takkan mawah teruk sangat kat zaza?tak per la zaza tak leh nak buat apa lagi dahh....just harap one day dia akan maafkan zaza akhirnya dan berjumpa dgn zaza....Damn i Miss him soooo muchh.....

2nd....
yeahhh.....sabtu ni nak tengok konsert Joe Flizzow & friends.....Ada Ruffedge, V.E, Jaclynn Victor, Gerhana Ska Cinta dan mizz Nina....Damn cant wait maaa...nak beronggeng setelah sekian lama bertapa kat umah......pastu maybe nak trus pi Orange clubbing...yeahhh.....If u wanna party like this just sing along........ohh ohh ohhhhh

3rd
insyallah bulan januari zaza akan ikut cikna pi sarawak.....maybe bercuti la kat sana...kat sana ada keje....kawan cikna punya makcik ada buka BAR...so blehh aaaa aku jaga sana nanti....ermm macam best je...lagipun tak penah nak pi sarawak pun...this is da time to explore.....bleh la release skit tension yang dah berkurun lama kat kpala nie.....tak larat nak lepak KL lagi aaaa...manyak sangat problemmm......kalu keja sana ada BAIKK....maybe nak stay kat sana je laa...mana la tau dapat BALAK hensem kat sana kaaa.....tau tau aku kawen je kat sana.....hahahhaha tak de laaaa...tak de nak buat keje gile laaa.....but im gonna miss my GP esp SOu and PUtri.....pizy punnn.....alahh pikir balik macam sedih gile....tapi diri mau rasa merantauuu.....tarak bleh tahannnnn woooooo

4th...
akhirnya zaza terpaksa melepaskan bebanan dan tekanan yang zaza alami 1 bulan nie.....walaupun zaza shayang sangat kat dia dan tak tau la dapat ke tak hidup tanpa dia buat sementara waktu nie tapi i have to make the decision....zaza tak nak dia merana dan zaza merana ....biar la skang ni je terasa....tak nak melarat...dia pun dah kata dia dah xlarat nak layan zaza....tak per zaza terima je laaa....i know where's my place is....if only he knew i love him so much that i couldnt bear to see him sick or having trouble....i love to share with him all his problem like i used too.....zaza tak reti nak cakap kat dia....betapa penting nya dia dalam hidup zaza skang nie....mungkin depan dia skang ni zaza buleh act zaza tak kisah sangat ...tapi dalam hati merentih menangis tengok keadaan zaza ngan dia .....kasih sayang zaza terhadap dia dah berubah sama skali....zaza dah tak sanggup lagi bertahan dengan kerenah dia....ego dia makin tinggi...childishhh sangat .......mengada tak bertempat....tapiiii all that make me LOVE HIM SO DAMNNNN MUCHHHH.......if only i can say it to his face....how much i like the way he smile...the way we laugh over a stupid joke.....how much i miss da time i spend time driving around with him doing nothing but talk in da car......hold his hand when walking through floods of people in uptown....it make me feel sooo special sooo good inside...tapi semua tu kenangan ....maybe one day i can talk to himm againn...zaza mmg maafkan dia.....tapi zaza tak nak tunjuk yang zaaza nak cepat mengalah afta what he did to me ....malam tu merupakan hari yang menghancur remukkan segala......tak penahhh rasa begitu sakit hati walaupun sayang dia....i hope u know i love u so much and i care 4 u no matter what...