camat ari rayo!!!

wow!! first time in mylife bangun pagi raya tanpa org lain kejutkan!!
haahahahah....maybe coz tido awal kot tapi mcm tak cukup tido gaks aaa
Coz plp keep on sms'ing me until morning for "raya" wishes!!
Not that its not a good thing ...Its GREAT coz i know i have frens who remembers me on 'Raya' eve...... heheheheheh
ciksou ada msg saya berkenaan sesuatu yg mcm meminta permision nak marah org..ala sou....u do what u do best babeyyyyyyyyyh!!
maki hamun people like no one business!!
and im still sayang you for what u are!!! heheheh ikhlas nie!!

my business went quite well.....sold most of my stocks...
but cikna bought too much so we have to open tomorrow to sell off all of the beverages!!!
saw BUZEN and his father which is an actor also...i cant recall his name!!
he bought water from me and he smiled at me sooooo sweetly!!
i swear i can faint that time !! hahahhah....
chumels sehhh dia!!!! tak ku sangkaaa.....ohhhhhh jatuh chenta jabs!!
I saw MIN also...slamat dia tak perasan it was me!!
didnt make any eye contact ngan dia pun...
so dia tak nampak ler...lagipun i was wearing a tudung..
so nampak la lain....eheeheh..slamattt!!!!
MIN with a songkong!! sooo diff with what i always see!!

mama balik kedah..sempat beraya ngan dia kat kubur tadi....
saya sangat la sedih tetiba...last year mana ada minta ampun ngan mama.....sooo rasa cam bertimbun jer dosa zaza.....hahhaha
soooo tadi agak relief la .... now i know dat i love her truly..
but i never show her much !! EGO NYA aku nie!!!

finally for the 1st time in mylife i understand why and how
a person can cry while they visit the cemetery....
selalu wonder kenapa mereka bleh menangeh ....
coz i couldnt understand and i do not have the 'FEEL'
but finally today...while i was visiting nenek,atuk,abah and hadiff grave...i felt sooo damn emotional....
i miss my nenek sooo much....she's the LOVE of mylife....
bile pk mylife without her....my eyes was watery and i cried...
now i know the meaning of missing someone soooo damn bad!!!
missing a heartbeat in ur heart.....missing a bone in one of your body....
damnnn im soooo jiwa !!! i cried so baddd....
but kaver baekk punyaaaa......slamat pakai tudung...
orang tak prasannn...my mama pun tak nampak...
but my adik nampak and she ask me why i cry...
hahhahaha....soklannya sama mcm daku tanya mereka2 dulu2...

selamat hari raya semua!!
hope your raya is better than mine!!!