im sad :(

Yes peeps....eventho I look happy and cheery and all but deep inside im freaking sad
Its about JENNZ...to those who know him,I mean heard bout him
knows how he meant to me in a way.....
sadly he's going AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY to JAPAN this weekend....
this friday will be my last date with him....
to hold his hand,to hug him,to laugh at his jokes,to see him smile
I know I can still see him through webcam and hear his jokes but I cant hold him tight when I want to...when I feel down..there no one to say its okay and hug me with all his might!!
Im sorry If I sound damn *jiwang* or emo but its just to difficult...
To me, HE IS THE ONE!! the right guy for me!! but soon it will all be gone!!
I know ppl say that 'kalau ada jodoh,tak kemana nya!!'
but I DONT GIVE A DAMN WITH THAT!!! I want him and I want him now and forever!!
Honestly peeps...when Im with him...I always thought of marriage!!
hahahha yeah laugh laa....I know...It is sooooooooooo not ZAZA!!
korang mesti cakap 'what?zaza?thinking to get married??kata nak kawin lambat!!'
hehehhe but to tell u da truth..I feel so secure with him and happy whenever Im with him...thats LOVE!! but Im fallin in love on a bad time!!
He's going this sunday...Nak pegi tgk ke tak eh? takot nnt za nangeh tak keruan je kang....abes ilang macho....I need him beside me...
penah one day kitorang kuar jalan2 sampai lewat malam and i was so damn tired,i slept in his car on the way back home....
and the sweetest thing he did was he didnt wake me up...instead he sleep in the car with me outside my house...*inwhich dipikirkan bodo sebenarnya!!*
tapi SWEETTTTT and romantic sangat!!! first time in mylife rasa benda semua indah2 belaka....tak sangka dia mcm tuu...
bile za taknya kenapa tak kejut kan je....kecian dia tak balik umah....
dia kata "kecian tengok za penat sangat dan tak sampai hati nak kejut kan *my princess* ...lagipun i ske tgk u tido....chomel sangat..."
OMG !! I was like the luckiest lady!! mata dah berair2 nak nangeh terharu sangat!!
tapi gagah macho saya tgk tmpt lain..and when i woke up...he was holding my hand while sleeping....SUMPAH dia tak buat apa2 kat za! He respect me and thats what make me FALL IN LOVE with JENNZ...

itu la alkisah cerita zaza tapi malang nya good things never end up happy...
Dia nak pergi dah...rasa macam nak cakap je DONT GO PLEASE I NEED U tapi tak sampai hati sebab dia nak mula kan karier dia kat sana....
kami tak kata putus lagi pasal relationship kami tapi mcm masing2 paham keadaan sendiri....dia kata dia akan hantar kan duit utk flight ke JAPAN nanti bile za dah cuti semester....so that we can be together!! Goshhh....

I just hope kami menjadi sebab za dah mula sayang sangat kat dia...
dah la hensem,baik nak mampos..gentlemen siap...
a guy that i never dreamt of to have!!
doakan la kami berdua akan kekal....
aku takot awek jepun sana kacau je....maklum laaaa ....
takper la...if dah takde jodoh...nak buat mcam mana..redha je laaa....

lastly...
I LOVE JENNZ with all myheart and my heart is aching with sadness becoz he's going away!!!