he's gone

yup..today is da last day!!
I didnt have the courage to sent him at the airport cos i know im going to cry all da way...sangat bukan zaza gituu...tak reti nak men'gagah'kan diri langsung!!
he did call me before dia naik flight...
dia nak make sure that i wasnt there....dan dia nak make sure dia im the last person and last voice he hears before leaving MALAYSIA....
(tapi nnt dia dgr sore stewardess kasi instruction kan?? emmm??)
ohh damnn zaza...sangat tak berpikiran romantikk !!!

well i did cried a bit when we talked on da phone...
he said it was best i didnt come to sent him away...
he might not board the plane if i was there!!
Im like....WHATTTTT ??? kalau aku tauuuu!!!(dalam hati laaa)
but its ok...he's going to pursue his career...
mana tau dia dah kaya sket (inwhich tak cukup ke duit mak bapak dia?)
but at least he has the urge to find his own money!!
thats what i like bout him!!

i told him as a joke that if he want to f*** japan gals , go ahead but dont forget to wear condoms....and i laugh!!
but he was angry!! 'ada ke patut u say like that!! u nak sangat ke i buat macam tu?'
dengan EGO nya saya berkata...'ske hati u laa,u're not my husband yet!!! I dont OWN u~!!!'
patut kah saya berkata begitu kepada insan yang baik hati pada saya??
mengapa lahhh ego ku sangat meninggi waktu itu!!
but I did say sorry at the last conversation...taknak la dia marah kat za kan!!
well i wish him all da best ....
harap kami akan berpanjangan jodohnya...
kalau tak...im moving on!!!!