complicated ~

I think like i used to say to my 'close frenz' that im a commitment phobic....
yeah blame it to my 'wonderful family' with the historical of divorcing all the time!
It shudnt have impact me really but what am i supposed to do?
my parents are divorced (not that im whining~) ,my fav aunt also a divorcee
am i destined to live around divorcee in my life??
aiyohhhhh.....that y im taking relationship quite 'whatever' ...
I havent found the 'right guy' YET !! in which I did found ONE ...JENNZ but damn ..he is outta my dictionary...heard that he's seeing some japanz chicks there!!
(ahahahha...sungguh masin skali mulutku..tambah garam..jgn malo2)

I guess Im tellin u all that I have 'this and that' with 'this and that' guy ...
In which some are definately TRUE or maybe some are only my imaginations...
Not that I lied to my frenz...(YES ...u plp out there!!)
It just sometimes when I say I have a so called relationship with this guy
It end up nothing later after a week....
so i couldnt really say it was a relationship....
maybe a 'week romance' or 'stok geli2' thingy....
and to my dismay...i was born a 'easily fall in love but also easily fall OUT of love' KARMA!! huhuhuhuh....tak caya tgk aa all those horoscope thingy!!
I spit on my karma.....kaaaaaaaaaatuihhhhh!!!

I do want a steady bf for myself and to show off (ahahhahaha!!)
but apakan daya diri ku yg chomel hanya utk tatapan umum!!
well i have LOADS of scandals but sume tak bleh pakai punya!! buat susah badan lagi ada laaa...so might as well Im off alone in this forbidden world (ohhh Im so dramatic!)

Like some my frenz said 'ko kuat sgt jual mahal...tu yg payah tu!!'
abes kalau jualan murah!! tak ke bersepah aku ni!! tu lagi payah dahhhh....
I mean we sometime say that we dont like this guy but actually deep inside we LOVE THEM TO DEATH !!!

soooo I am a commitment phobic and i shall say i will only get marry when i am 28 above....insyallah *crossfinger* ...
i need to pursue all my dream 1st before gettin really attached to a GUY whom i have to live for eternity...I just hope I love him sooo much as he love me...coz man~~ Im so easily get bored!! guys out there!! be exciting!! be attractive!! be YOU!! not a fake - Im -so- cool kinda guy...OKAY??

Jenz I still Hart u....eventho u sucks coz u get to fucked japans chickz and I dont get any japanz blocks!! ahahahhahahahahhahahahahhah u still me amore!!!

to my peeps out there!! just trust ur instinct to trust me!!
Im gonna shut IT if i have any so called BF...
betul2 confirm then I shall spill and tell ok??
love ya to bits