Mistake of lovin u

I realized that I'm really a fool ~ I can't believe I even have the dreams to be with you ~ You & me ~ We're two different people from different places ~ In which I know even though I tried my best to set aside my feelings for u ~ I just can't ~ It's quite difficult to do so when u're becoming a part of my life ~ I guess after all I've read & listened to ~ I really have to let it go ~ Let YOU go ~ I must NOT torture myself by thinking that I have the slightest chance with you in this world ~ I should have known better myself ~ You're really out of my league ~ Yes , the good ones are always far from hand ~

Banished all the love I have had for you ~ No more crazy nights of exciting conversations ~ You & me ~ We are only two mere humans in this world who are really NOT meant for each other ~ We are only destined to be good friends ~ That is all to it ~ Thank you for being there for me all this while ~ I really love the times we have spent together ~ Never again I think I will have the courage to face you again ~ I'll put on my mask of lies in front of you ~ Just to make you see that I don't really care bout you anymore ~ I'll pretend to smile & be happy for you even though its killing me inside slowly ~ I'll be there by your side always ~ Laugh and giggle with your jokes ~ But deep inside , I'm crying like hell ~

Paranoid ~ Love has never once played my rules ~ Instead I have to give in ~ To let loose to someone I never wanted to love ~ And when it does ~ It just gave me more heartache & pain ~

I never wanted this ~ NEVER EVER ~ but Love is a silly game ~ Which we all succumb to ~ Foolishly making fools of ourself ~ I'm sorry ~ It was never my intention to lay down my sorrows to you ~ It's my mistake ~ and I shall swallow it whole ~ I intend to keep it all my life ~ Thank you for even knowing that I existed in your life ~

I do hope you'll find the ONE you love ~ I truly do deep down from my heart ~ You deserved better than what I am ~ You & me ~ It can't never have the terms ~ ' We're an item' ~ All I am is a friend, a place to confessed, a place of comfort ~ but never a place for Love ~

Love ~ Hate it ~ Never want to feel it again ~ It shall die deep buried down under ~ No one will ever feel that love from me again ~ Period ~